2004-03-27||12:49 p.m.

::\Tell Me/::

Have you ever felt the urge to cry? Ever felt so empty but can't find the reason why? Have you ever just let the tears flow and not wipe them away? Have you ever thought you're over something, but then find yourself crying over it again?
Because I have. And I don't know why. I don't know how to stop myself. And I don't know when I'll get over it. I don't know what is bothering me. And I don't know where is the one who can help me, pull me out of all these.

I feel that lump in my throat surface, and I know another episode is coming. I try to force it down, but... I can't. Not always. And so, the tears fall. And so, my heart breaks. Once again. Why does it have to happen over and over? Why doesn't my brain and mind work together? I hate it. Just hate it.
The world I am in, the world with you in it. This world. What is it really? Is it always out to harm me? Out to demolish me, wipe me from it?

Do I always have to clutch the edge of my shirt and wipe away those trickling tears? Do I? Do I have to pretend I have not cried repeatedly when I have? Do I? Do I have to hide from this hideous world? Do I have to pretend all the time?
Tell me I can let those tears fall without being laughed at. Tell me I can let others see my true self without being scorned at. Tell me I can give my heart to others without being rejected. Tell me I can do everything I want without being looked down upon. Just tell me and reassure me.
Fayes (Mood swing...)
P.S. There was another entry before this.
P.P.S. Added my website to the links above. =)

tide in || tide out

::\The End/:: - 2004-04-04
::\Thank You & Goodbye/:: - 2004-04-04
::\Guaranteed Promises/:: - 2004-04-03
::\Forgive Me/:: - 2004-04-02
::\A Prayer to the Angel of Tears/:: - 2004-04-01