2004-01-20||9:03 p.m.

::\Chinese New Year's Eve's Eve/::

*She lays motionless on the cold, worn couch, her eyes fixed on a spot on the wall. Her mind drifts while her soul is drained. How restless can one get?*

That's what I feel like doing now. Just doing nothing. Just letting myself drift till I fall off the edge or something. Tomorrow's New Year's Eve, for goshen's sake, Fayes! Wake up from this daze you're in! Urgh! I need to cheer up. Put on more smiles. Erm... what else? Say more nice words?! Gawd... it all sounds so disgusting now. *Sighs* What's up with me? Yesterday seemed like SUCH a nice day. The conversation I had with DJ was just erm... "special". o.O I don't know... it sounded special, to me. To him, prolly too... Oh wellz. But it's over. Such stuffies don't repeat itself again. *Shrugs* Mebbe in some other ways... or something. But, not soon, I guess. o.O
Let's see how many things I should be rejoicing over:
1) I can wear home clothes to school tomorrow.
2) It's Chinese New Year's Eve tomorrow. Half day!
3) My cousins and relatives are all coming over to my house tomorrow!
4) I'm going to get LOTS of red packets these few days. I hope. o.O
5)... what else is there...? *Shrugs* No 5. Strike out the No.5. *Sighs* And, then, let's see what I am not rejoicing about...:
1) I can't go out with DJ tomorrow, although it's halfday.
2) I'm prolly going to be helping my mom clean the house and stuffies tomorrow instead of going out with friends and stuffies. *Rolls eyes*
3) After CNY, there'll be ALL the tests coming.
4) I always dread going out in New Year clothes and visiting other people. I mean, geez, I hardly ever talk during those times. Unless I really do know the other parties. *Shrugs*
5) Why bother dressing up and stuffies when I'm not happy? I mean, geez, I hate it when I got to do something which totally contradicts my mood. Bleahx...
Woa... more "should not rejoice" stuffies than "should rejoice" stuffies. *Shrugs* Alright, so I'm bored. I'm restless. I've got nothing to do, although there're like so many peeps online. I've got like... *Counts* 5 MSN conversations open. But, all of them are either "busy", "away", "brb", except for DJ's. *Sighs* How boring can life get? Bleahx...
::\Fayes/::

tide in || tide out

::\The End/:: - 2004-04-04
::\Thank You & Goodbye/:: - 2004-04-04
::\Guaranteed Promises/:: - 2004-04-03
::\Forgive Me/:: - 2004-04-02
::\A Prayer to the Angel of Tears/:: - 2004-04-01