2004-01-31||8:23 p.m.

::\Left Out/::

*Sighs* You're prolly at Orchard now... watching Chingay with your friends. *Shrugs* Yea... I pretended not to be bothered about it, but hey, I really am. >.< *Sulks* I know I know... I'm just being petty or somefin. But, bleahx... I could be there with you. >.< Just that, you decided to call your mom after you sent me home. *Frowns* And well, yeah, I did smile and laugh when you told me you were going. But, goshens, inside, I was... I don't know... angry... disappointed... jealous even. *Sighs* But, guess I can't do anything about it, huh? *Shrugs* It's your right... you can choose whether you want to go or not. I can't control you whatsoever. So, hey, why should I be upset and angry with you? I don't know. Grmbl...
I know I may be too much and all, but I just... well, I was a little pissed yesterday already. And, when you said you mebbe wouldn't be able to go out with me today, I was even more disappointed. And then, you said it was ok. So, yea... my feelings lifted up abit. *Shrugs* I didn't act indifferent towards you the whole of the date. But, geez... when you told me about you were going to Chingay. I totally perked up because I thought I could go with you. But, ends up, I couldn't. =( Gawd... I feel so left out. Urgh!
So yea... my television's on now. Chingay's on television now. *Shrugs* I'm just trying to watch it from a small friggin tv screen while you get the chance to watch it real life. *Sighs* I know, it isn't your fault, but I just can't help feeling angry. >.< While you can go out and have fun, I gotta stay stuck at home doing my homework and studying for my tests and idling around with NO ONE interesting (except Tony) to talk to. >.< *Kicks* How worse can this get... grmbl... Just trying hard not to cry. ::\Fayes/::

tide in || tide out

::\The End/:: - 2004-04-04
::\Thank You & Goodbye/:: - 2004-04-04
::\Guaranteed Promises/:: - 2004-04-03
::\Forgive Me/:: - 2004-04-02
::\A Prayer to the Angel of Tears/:: - 2004-04-01